My space -room ..for feelings

went to the wedding ...saw a lot of ppl I have not seen for a long time...(bride and bridesmaids looked stuning)
for the first time in my life had to use a walking stick in public..felt vonurable only my family have seen me with stick ... I know it is some-think i will have to get use to... I am still me to ppl that know me...but I feel that strangers are staring at me because of the stick and the way I walk :sick: :sick:

You are a lovely lady also a very caring person,walk tall if they look it's only because your special.

ducky wrote:

went to the wedding ...saw a lot of ppl I have not seen for a long time...(bride and bridesmaids looked stuning)
for the first time in my life had to use a walking stick in public..felt vonurable only my family have seen me with stick ... I know it is some-think i will have to get use to... I am still me to ppl that know me...but I feel that strangers are staring at me because of the stick and the way I walk :sick: :sick:

yes,i know what you mean.....that first time out in public arena,with any disability is a difficult step to take.......but it gets easier.

..i hate the looks and attitude of the ignorant masses out there!!.......stare them straight in the face, and give attitude.....make them feel small and stupid....give them guilt....challenge them................sometimes it aint easy...but boy they deserve it !!

...like scotty said ducky, you are a wonderful,caring and special person.. ...we love you here...dont ever forget that....and know that we are behind you.

xx suzan xx

I walk in fear of falling down,
Lifes hard to bear without a froun,
I know my beauty comes from within,
That thought quite often restores my grin,
Those who love me know me well,
I am Ducky,a lady ,in a body hell,
My friends,like me,all fight their pain,
My friends are here ...and will always remain xxxxxxx;)

I bet you looked a stunningly beautiful picture xxxxx;)

thank you suzan tony and scotty...I have been fighting a battle to keep out of a wheel-chair and not to use sticks for nearly 40 yrs...I think part of my problem is that i did not expect it to kick in with a vengence about 6 to 7 yrs ago...I have alwas had a proplem walking and getting up and down stairs but some how kept going... I will admit to you my friends I am scared... but I am truly glad i joined this site... ppl here understand what i mean even if I cant explain it all propley... tony you can write me poetry any time you like :laugh:
ps It is only in my hope town I feel worse..god is it my pride that makes me feel worse :blush: